Six years ago (2010), I shared a piece of my story from the depths of transformation as a season of unraveling, healing, and learning how to come home to myself through some of life’s greatest challenges. At the time, I thought I understood what awakening was.
I had no idea how much deeper the journey would go!
The years since have been filled with many deaths and rebirths in every sense of the word. Layers of who I thought I was have continuously fallen away as I’ve journeyed through profound remembrance of soul, of purpose, of lifetimes, timelines, and dimensions that have expanded my understanding of healing, connection, and what it truly means to be human.
This path has taken me through incredible initiations. I’ve facilitated Reiki trainings, sacred circles, ceremonies and various transformational workshops guided by the collective energy of those present. I’ve sat in sacred spaces witnessing people remember their own light while simultaneously learning to embody my own authentic expression more fully.
I’ve traveled to Mount Shasta six different times, each journey carrying its own medicine, revelations, and soul remembrance. I could honestly write an entire book about what that mountain has awakened within me! I’ve journeyed to Egypt, standing among ancient energies that stirred something timeless inside of me, reminding me that healing and remembrance exist far beyond this singular lifetime.
At the same time, some of my deepest teachings have not come from mystical experiences, but through relationships and everyday life. Love, heartbreak, karmic connections, soul mirrors, friendship, motherhood, caregiving…all of it has shaped me. Every relationship has reflected another layer of myself back to me, asking me to soften, expand, heal, release, and ultimately choose authenticity over performance.
My path with my son continues to be one of my greatest teachers. We are still navigating the complexities and gifts that come with autism, ADHD, puberty, emotional sensitivity and living outside conventional systems through self-directed learning. This journey has stretched me in ways I never could have imagined, but it has also taught me to trust intuition, honor autonomy, and hold space for a different way of being.
At the same time, life initiated me into another sacred role: caretaker. Walking beside my mother through advanced dementia has been one of the most heartbreaking and humbling experiences of my life. It has taught me about presence, surrender, grief, compassion, and the profound tenderness required to love someone through their unraveling while simultaneously holding your own. It has been such an honor to witness her through this journey and healing the mother/daughter wounds together.
Many seasons have brought me to my knees while others have cracked my heart wide open with profound beauty.
Through it all, herbal medicine became an even deeper part of my path. What began as personal healing blossomed into the creation of my apothecary and the sharing of herbal offerings crafted with intention, intuition, and reverence for the Earth. Herbalism has become one of the purest expressions of my soul—where healing, creativity, spirit, and nature meet as one.
Today, I stand more rooted in myself than ever before. I no longer hide the multidimensional parts of myself. I no longer shrink my intuition, my voice, my healing gifts, or my love. I express my soul through herbalism, healing work, intuitive guidance, teaching, caregiving, motherhood, sacred connection, and devotion to this ever-evolving journey of awakening.
And perhaps that has been the greatest lesson of these past six years: Not fixing myself, but fully embodying who I have always been. To allow every experience, beautiful or painful, to deepen my capacity to love, serve, heal, and remember.
This path has not been linear or easy. It has been mystical, messy, expansive, heartbreaking, beautiful, and profoundly transformative. Every death and rebirth has brought me into deeper embodiment of my truest self.
And I now understand that coming home to yourself is not about changing or fixing who you are.
It is about having the courage to fully live as the soul you came here to be.